Today is one of those days where I have to close my office door. I don't understand why people think that when a female feels nauseous, doesn't feel like eating due to feeling nauseous, female then goes home due to knowing that she is gong to hurl, and still doesn't feel good the next day ="oh you must be pregnant". Seriously? Seriously?!?! I went home on Tuesday due to feeling sick and ended up throwing up but felt somewhat better yesterday and today but still not feeling 100%. I've had probably 5-6 people say "are you sure you're not pregnant?" Yep, pretty sure-according the dr. it is not possible without being on meds. "well dr's can be wrong" True but that's not the case right now. "Well maybe you should go take a pregnancy test" Thanks but that would be a waste of money...if you'll excuse me I have to get back to work.
I know they probably are trying to be nice and wishful that it would happen for us. The people that are saying this know what we've already gone through and I've had many conversations about how my body doesn't work without drugs and how IVF is basically the only option we have at this point. So when people say "well you never know", I DO know that it won't happen for us..at least not without me being on meds along with other stuff to assist us and even then it's not good. Andy and I both know this and are ok with how things are for us. We know that God has a plan and we are very very excited to do foster to adopt. I also know that I can't let my self think...about "what if" and the thought of buying another pregnancy test "just in case" just makes me get a big knot in my stomach. I have done the pregnancy test way too many times when I let "what if" get to me...the 3 minutes waiting to see what is going to appear in that window is the longest 3 minutes ever. Especially when you are praying that this time is really going to be the time...sitting with fingers, toes, arms, and legs crossed hoping that the test will read pregnant and then 3 minutes is up...."Not pregnant". Then the tears start to fault, then I feel like my body failed me again, and get mad at myself for even putting myself through the whole "what if" thinking, and then my wonderful husband hugs me and says "It's ok, it's going to be ok", "WE are going to be ok"
Ok, vent done..hope I haven't offended anyone, I just needed to get this out before somone poor, unsuspecting co-worker comes in and asks "are you feeling better" yes, feeling much better
"could you be pregnant?"
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I know. Hugs! I was sick to my stomach on my flight on Monday...spent the majority of the flight in the bathroom...and I got the "Are you sure?" pregnant questions too...ugh. Nope...just nasty old stomach bug!
Best Wishes on your foster to adopt journey! It is worth it...not only does your dream come true but you have helped a child's dream of a "forever family" come true. We know as we fostered 16 children in 3 years and out of those we were able to adopt 3. There are painful moments when you hope a situation will work in your favor but know that when time is right you will have the child that is meant for you. Bless you and your courage to step into the unknown to help another!
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