Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts

Sunday, October 5, 2008

First meeting...CHECK!

Thursday night I went to the information meeting so we can start the adoption process..yeah! I have the packet we have to fill out and hopefully we will be starting the classes on October 17! Woo hoo!! We are so excited and this just feels so right! I know the whole process won't go as quick as I would like, but good things come to those who wait, right?

Andy's mother, Diana, was in town for a few days. We went to lunch with her and Andy's bro yesterday and breakfast with her today. It was so great to see her and Matt and just have some family time! I've heard so many people complain about their in-laws but I guess I must be lucky because my in-laws are wonderful! I just wish we were able to spend more time with them.

As excited as we've been to start the process to adopt, I still sometimes struggle with the fact that we haven't been able to get pregnant. At work, I've had people come up and ask when we're going to have kids or why don't we have kids yet. I just smile and say hopefully soon. One co-worker said..."Sara, you need to have kids and then you'll understand." It took all that I had not to burst into tears...unfortunately my mouth didn't stay shut. I told him, trust me if I could get pregnant we would have kids, but unfortunately I can't so we don't. You would think after that he wouldn't have said anything more..but oh no..."you just need to relax and then it will happen". Seriously, that's it, all I need to do is relax?!?!?!...man, why did I spend all that money and take all those drugs if I just need to relax. *SIGH* At that point, I had to go back to my office and close the door. I sometimes feel like I "failed" as a woman but I know that there's a reason for this and that God has a plan for us. I just have to keep the other thoughts out of my head and have faith. I saw this posted on Lisa's blog and it is so true..

Worry looks around.
Sorry looks back.
FAITH LOOKS UP